the Switch

I was that girl who thought she knew what she wanted to do with her life her freshman year of high school. Everyone who knew me knew I was focused on traveling a bumpy career path, or in this case a bumpy street, and that was Broadway. I wanted to be a Broadway actress.

I started dancing at the age of three, so I had always had that creative outlet in my life. It wasn’t until I performed in my very first Nutcracker that performing became more than just a hobby. Shakespeare wrote, “All the world’s a stage,” and being onstage felt as if I belonged in this world. Performing gave me a chance to be noticed.

Throughout my childhood, I was known as the “shy” girl. People would describe me as “quiet” or “reserved” and they were correct. Little did they know I was suffering from a slight social anxiety. Because of this issue, I didn’t get a lot of courage to speak my mind and I constantly worried about what others would think of me. Now, I know what you’re thinking… why on EARTH would a shy girl with confidence issues want to be on stage? I know it sounds strange but performing allowed me to become someone else. When I was onstage I wasn’t Katelyn Fulmer, I was a character! Which meant that for those few moments, I was able to be the center of attention without having a fearful thought in my mind.

My passion for theatre grew, even more, the next couple years of high school. I started acting and voice lessons to build up my skills, I continued dancing, and I participated in the musicals at my school. I was growing into a stronger performer every day. But what I thought would strengthen my confidence, ended up destroying it. You see, I was a dreamer stuck in the pessimistic jungle known as high school. My senior year of high school was the worst for my confidence. I allowed the harsh comments and petty drama to sabotage the hard work and passion I had. What used to be my escape, became the thing I dreaded the most. I even felt discouraged at home. I would try to practice my music in my room, but every mistake reminded me of how I wasn’t good enough. When it came to college auditions, my destroyed confidence followed me, so it did not surprise me when I got rejected from every school’s program.

I don’t want it to sound like theatre ruined me because it didn’t. I loved every second of my performing days and I would do another show in a heartbeat. I also loved all of the friends I met and the mentors I had. It just takes a very strong personality to do theatre for a career, and it was not right for me, so I had to make the switch. To any aspiring actors out there, DO NOT LET PEOPLE DEFINE YOU. That was my mistake, and it’s something I have now learned from. Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like if I didn’t listen to all the people who brought me down. I wonder if I would have ended up at NKU. I wonder if I would have found my sorority. I wonder if I would be the person I am today.

Psalm 37:5 says “Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn.” Everything happens for a reason and looking back, I would not have changed a thing. God has given me so much at NKU and I am blessed with opportunities. He made me fall so that I could come back stronger. I decided to make the switch to PR because it was more stable for me emotionally and luckily, it is something I am extremely passionate about. I knew acting would be hard and I knew if I stuck with it I would never have become the confident young woman I am today.

Let’s Begin!

I’ve been playing around with the idea of creating my own blog for a few months now, but for some reason, I kept feeling discouraged. I kept asking myself what would my blog even be about? Who on earth would bother to read it? Would it just be a waste of time? Well, I’ll be honest… Five months ago I didn’t even fully understand what a blog was. I figured a blog was for Crafty Moms to share DIY tutorials and recipes with each other. I had no interest in making one for myself. It wasn’t until March that I realized how important it was for me to brand myself using a blog.

For those who may not know me, I am a Public Relations student at Northern Kentucky University. Public Relations has to do with the relationship a company has with its audience or customers. Today, a lot of PR is done through social media. Back in March, I toured a local PR Firm located in Covington, KY where I got to speak with Professionals in PR. These PR Agents stressed the importance of branding yourself on all media platforms in order to stand out from the sea of applicants for any PR position. One of these platforms being a blog. I remember one worker mentioning that blogs have the ability to show off your writing skills, creativity, and personality. After hearing all of that I knew that I had to look into making one.

If there’s one thing to know about me it’s that I am a perfectionist (It’s both my biggest strength and biggest weakness). I knew if I wanted to make a blog it had to be perfect. SO I did some research. I began reading so many articles on how to make a successful blog. I even read blogs ABOUT blogs. Sadly, this started to discourage me. You see, most blogs have a certain theme or message they want to reach to their audience. For example, a blog about fashion tips or a blog about cooking. I had NO idea what to write about (and to be honest I still don’t…) so I went through this phase of “just waiting for the perfect idea” to pop up for me and my future blog.

As you can probably see, I found this “perfect idea” with the help of some friends (Hannah and Taylor if you are reading this you are my inspiration!) I decided to make a personal blog. With this blog, I hope to feel more comfortable as a writer in hopes that it will prepare me for my future in Public Relations. I also hope to feel more comfortable sharing my personal experiences and journey with all of you. I plan on learning as I go with this blog because I am pretty much teaching myself. I’m working hard to “go with the flow” on this blog in order to break away from my perfectionism. With that being said, my motto for this blogging journey is from my favorite musical, Newsies. “Whatever Happens… Let’s Begin!”