Hello, this is my first blog post in a little over a month, so I thought I would update you all on what’s been going on. To be honest, I just needed a break. Back in August, I started my senior year of college, which has turned out to be a lot more challenging than I thought it would be. Being fully online with school, I pictured that this semester would be a breeze. I thought I would have so much free time to work on hobbies, like my blog. I figured that since most activities and events were canceled, I would finally have time to relax.
Being a senior in general is hard. I remember back in high school, I was juggling several different commitments. However, being in high school, I had so many “lasts” that kept me through stressful times. Whenever I felt anxious, I would think about all the things I was looking forward to. I looked forward to prom, my last musical, my senior trip, graduation, and much more. All of these events made the hard work worth it in the end.
But with our current state, seniors in 2020 don’t get any lasts. The lasts we did get, we didn’t realize they were our lasts. Our college experiences are over without them actually being over. Just yesterday, I was informed that my school is canceling spring break and possibly canceling graduation. Although I understand why they canceled these, it’s frustrating to think that seniors are working harder than ever without a break and the recognition we deserve. Finishing strong is hard as it is (senioritis is real y’all), so we’re expected to find a way to keep going with nothing to look forward to?
These past few weeks, I have been in a rut. I have the same routine and sad mindset every day, and I just cannot seem to get myself out of it. I am not inspired to work on the things I typically enjoy, which is upsetting. I am literally forcing myself to write this very post. But while writing this, I realized that it’s ok to be upset. We are in a hard season of life, but we will eventually get out of it.
I guess I am writing this for my fellow college seniors, all of whom are finishing their years of hard work during such a time of uncertainty. We deserve better, but I have a strong feeling that our hard work will not go unnoticed. If we can finish our degrees in the heart of a pandemic, we can do so much more. I am with you, I am praying for you, and I believe in you.
“When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.”
–Harriet Beecher Stowe